Thursday Rambles

• Today I work both jobs and don't even feel like working one, much less both
• The above makes me feel guilty because I KNOW I am blessed to be employed in today's job market
• I excuse/justify/whatever-you-want-to-call-it my feelings because I really am exhausted
• Totally possible to be grateful AND exhausted; I'm proof :-D
• I have so much going on, so much on my mind, so much troubling my heart that I know this feeds into my exhaustion way more than the jobs do
• It is easier to "blame" the jobs
• I canceled my last therapy appointment
• I think the above was a mistake but I caved to my exhaustion
• I pray one day, that love, that I know exists, steps in and makes most of my situations, that cause me so much pain, better
• Tomorrow I go back to the eye dr.  I'm glad because the "on purpose wrong script" in my left eye is driving me insane.
• Boychild also goes back to his dr tomorrow, hopefully to be released to full duty
• Girlchild's doctor has started her back on the medication she had an allergic reaction to.  She now takes 1/16th the dose she took before and it will be gradually increased in hopes that her body will learn to accept it.  Not really sure how I feel about that. 
• I cut my leg shaving today.  Haven't done that in years.   Sucks.
• I'm considering dating.  For real.  I keep thinking about it and not doing it because I feel it isn't fair to bring someone into my troubled world.  It isn't fair to involve someone else when I still love my husband.   But I'm tired of being alone and I feel the need to have someone who cares.   I plan to be totally honest with anyone I even talk to, so would that make it ok?  
• I have noticed more than one person 'check me out' recently  :-)
• It is raining right now, I go to work in an hour.  I don't even own an umbrella.  What the heck is wrong with me??
• After tomorrow's eye appt I plan to get another haircut
• I hope my glasses are in soon
• I haven't heard back from the po-po on who my cowardly texter is
• I haven't gotten another text but ... based on previous patterns it is getting close to the time of getting another